Don't Look Back In Anger

I thought I was going to be able to update every day forever, but as it turns out, I just have way too much going on in my day and in my life to do that, so all I can promise myself is that I will do my best. Kind of like most things.

The end of the semester is killing me. I'm struggling to pull together something like seventy pages of writing in the next couple of weeks, and I'm not sure it's physically possible. I may have to cut my losses and put my effort into what's gonna hurt me the most if I fuck it up, but maybe if I really kill it I can catch up this week. I dunno. I'm not a miracle worker.

And I believe there's diminishing returns on the effort I put into things. I put in the needed effort, I get a return of just scraping by, but I get less and less of a return for each additional unit of effort I add after that. I need to find that happy 5% extra that's actually worth it, and forget the rest, so I don't kill myself. There's more I want to worry about than just that.

This summer is gonna be a stretch. There's the apparent line-up of: family reunion in Charleston directly following the semester's end, the fuckface camping trip in June, my program in San Diego in July-August, and the girls' trip to AC after that. I also have to donate eggs in there somewhere, and I'm a little concerned about conflict over that. I also have to find a source of funding for the summer - I'm thinking unemployment? It can be done! I guess I can tell you now, I'll be studying nuclear policy at UCSD on full grant; guess I'm not a total waste of a grad student after all.

We had a shit show party last weekend. It was really fun until I sprained my foot and knee, which was sometime after I threw the beer at Andre and jumped in the window. Shit was flying off the porch, out the windows, down the stairs. Kanye West showed up. I learned that we need to set ground rules for our crazy parties before we end up with the cops in our living room. I will devise a plan to avoid this for the next time I want to have a night of mayhem.